Reasons to Believe - Part 1
Questions I Asked Myself
Focus: I realized growing up that I was wanton, left wanting but also wanted by Jesus of Nazareth.
Wanton
Left Wanting
Wanted by Jesus of Nazareth
We’ll look at these topics through Questions I Asked Myself as I tried to figure out and give purpose to my existence.
I want to also introduce you to a man named Timothy Keller, who, through Jesus, helped me answer many of these questions.
Wanton
I found that because of my experiences and what I saw in the culture as normal, in much of my early development I was wanton.
Definition:
Wanton
(of a cruel or violent action) deliberate and unprovoked
DATED : sexually unrestrained or having many casual sexual relationships
I discovered when I came to college that I was searching for something that only God could provide.
“Creatures are not born with desires unless satisfaction for those desires exists. A baby feels hunger: well, there is such a thing as food. A duckling wants to swim: well, there is such a thing as water. ... If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world. If none of my earthy pleasures satisfy it, that does not prove that the universe is a fraud. Probably earthly pleasures were never meant to satisfy it, but only to arouse it, to suggest the real thing. ... I must keep alive in myself the desire for my true country, which I shall not find till after death; I must never let it get snowed under or turned aside; I must make it the main object of life to press on to that other country and help others to do the same.”
-C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
When I encountered not just church, but Jesus through the Bible, a new world was opened up to me.
John 6:26-51 ESV
”Jesus answered them, "Truly, truly, I say to you, you are seeking me, not because you saw signs, but because you ate your fill of the loaves. Do not work for the food that perishes, but for the food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give to you. For on him God the Father has set his seal." Then they said to him, "What must we do, to be doing the works of God?" Jesus answered them, "This is the work of God, that you believe in him whom he has sent." So they said to him, "Then what sign do you do, that we may see and believe you? What work do you perform? Our fathers ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written, 'He gave them bread from heaven to eat.'" Jesus then said to them, "Truly, truly, I say to you, it was not Moses who gave you the bread from heaven, but my Father gives you the true bread from heaven. For the bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world." They said to him, "Sir, give us this bread always." Jesus said to them, "I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst. But I said to you that you have seen me and yet do not believe. All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out. For I have come down from heaven, not to do my own will but the will of him who sent me. And this is the will of him who sent me, that I should lose nothing of all that he has given me, but raise it up on the last day. For this is the will of my Father, that everyone who looks on the Son and believes in him should have eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day."
So the Jews grumbled about him, because he said, "I am the bread that came down from heaven."
They said, "Is not this Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How does he now say, 'I have come down from heaven'?" Jesus answered them, "Do not grumble among yourselves. No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him. And I will raise him up on the last day. It is written in the Prophets, 'And they will all be taught by God.' Everyone who has heard and learned from the Father comes to me— not that anyone has seen the Father except he who is from God; he has seen the Father. Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes has eternal life. I am the bread of life. Your fathers ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. And the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh."“
Let’s go a little further to see where this wanton life left me and ultimately, leaves us.
Left Wanting
Jesus clearly says that we are left wanting in the world without him.
What do I mean?
What is the common human condition?:
People in the world are searching for positive attention and affirmation.
TikTok, Instagram, YouTube and selfie culture only affirm this.
You can see it in the halls of academia where people are determined to prove themselves, you can see it on Greek row, you can see it on the lawn when the weather gets warm and in the bars people frequent with their time and money hoping someone will take them home and make them actually feel alive for a night.
Everyone is asking the following questions:
Who will tell you that you are desirable, valuable, competent, worthy of love, affection or esteem?
-We all want to feel loved
-We all want to feel valued
-We all want to feel accepted
-We all want to feel fulfilled
-We all want to feel desired
-We all want to know we’re not living a lie but are living in what is good and true - even if it means the pursuit of wanton pleasure.
What stops us from experiencing this?
We fear that despite all of our fronts and bold faces that we put on, if people knew how deeply insecure we are, so uncertain about truth, our present or our future, they wouldn’t love or accept us.
What Jesus said was profound to this point and was echoed by a man named Timothy Keller:
“To be loved but not known is superficial. To be known but not loved is our nightmare. Only Jesus knows us to the bottom and loves us to the sky.”
-Timothy Keller
Yet we try to fill ourselves with superficial love that function as things to prop us up while masking our real condition.
I found props in the party scene feeling that I was liberated by an unrestrained sexual and philosophical ethic, only to realize that it led me into a greater bondage to sadness, self-loathing, insecurity and fear.
When I was introduced to the Bible, I found that my props were, against my initial judgment, being turned on their heads for good reason. :
“The Christian sex ethic was understood by the apostles to be a nonnegotiable part of orthodoxy, one of the core beliefs of Christianity. What Christians taught and practiced about sexuality was as much a necessary implication of the gospel and the resurrection as were care for the poor and the equality of the races. This makes it impossible to argue, as many try to do, that what the Bible says about caring for the poor is right but what it says about sex is outmoded and should be discarded.”
-Timothy Keller
This mattered because:
I was hurting and I hurt people along the way.
I eventually felt guilty about it but couldn’t find a way out.
“The secular framework . . . has nothing to give the wounded conscience to heal it. It has nothing to say to the self who feels it is unworthy of love and forgiveness. Anyone who has seen the depths of their sin and what they are capable of will never be mollified by the bromide of ‘Be nice to yourself—you deserve it.’”
-Timothy Keller
When Jesus said that he was the bread of life, not only was he making a promise to live the perfect life that we should have lived, die the sacrificial death we should die on the cross, in our place, and rise from the dead, he was also promising to bring us into a life that truly satisfies our souls.
“[These are] Christianity’s unsurpassed offers—a meaning that suffering cannot remove, a satisfaction not based on circumstances, a freedom that does not hurt but rather enhances love, an identity that does not crush you or exclude others, a moral compass that does not turn you into an oppressor, and a hope that can face anything, even death.”
-Timothy Keller
But is Jesus reliable?
I found that historically, who I wanted to be had its roots in Jesus.
“The humanistic moral values of secularism are not the deliverances of scientific reasoning, but have come down to us from older times . . . they have a theological history. And modern people hold them by faith alone.”
-Timothy Keller
“Jesus is one of the very few persons in history who founded a great world religion or who, like Plato or Aristotle, has set the course of human thought and life for centuries. Jesus is in that tiny, select group. On the other hand, there have been a number of persons over the years who have implicitly or explicitly claimed to be divine beings from other worlds. Many of them were demagogues; many more were leaders of small, self-contained sects of true believers. What is unique about Jesus is that he is the only member of the first set of persons who is also a member of the second.”
“Everything in the Hebrew worldview militated against the idea that a human being could be God. Jews would not even pronounce the name ‘Yahweh’ nor spell it. And yet Jesus Christ—by his life, by his claims, and by his resurrection—convinced his closest Jewish followers that he was not just a prophet telling them how to find God, but God himself come to find us.”
-Timothy Keller
Why hadn’t I come to God before?
It ultimately came down to a lack of developed trust that God intends good for me and for the world.
“If you want to understand your own behavior, you must understand that all sin against God is grounded in a refusal to believe that God is more dedicated to our good, and more aware of what that is, than we are. We distrust God because we assume he is not truly for us, that if we give him complete control we will be miserable. Adam and Eve did not say, ‘Let’s be evil. Let’s ruin our own lives and everyone else’s too!’ Rather they thought, ‘We just want to be happy. But his commands don’t look like they’ll give us the things we need to thrive. We’ll have to take things into our own hands—we can’t trust him.’”
-Timothy Keller
Wanted by Jesus of Nazareth
The truth is what we are all truly seeking is in Jesus and the good news is that Jesus is seeking us.
But what if I feel undeserving?
What frees me and encourages my heart in all of this, even when I know that I’ve been undeserving is this? :
Romans 5:6-8 ESV
”For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.“
“The gospel is that I am so sinful that Jesus had to die for me, yet so loved and valued that Jesus was glad to die for me. This leads to deep humility and deep confidence at the same time. I can’t feel superior to anyone, and yet I have nothing to prove to anyone.”
-Timothy Keller
To experience this fulfillment, we must see Jesus in a new way.
But what if I’ve already been turned off by what I’ve heard?
“Only if your god can outrage and challenge you will you know that you worship the real God and not a figment of your imagination. . . . If your god never disagrees with you, you might just be worshiping an idealized version of yourself.”
-Timothy Keller
How’s that working for you?
Remember, Jesus said:
"Truly, truly, I say to you, you are seeking me, not because you saw signs, but because you ate your fill of the loaves. Do not work for the food that perishes, but for the food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give to you. For on him God the Father has set his seal."
We must see him as he is and he must become LORD and SAVIOR of our lives.
“When you come to Christ, you must drop your conditions. You have to give up the right to say, ‘I will obey you if . . . I will do this if . . .’ As soon as you say, ‘I will obey you if,’ that is not obedience at all. You are saying: ‘You are my adviser, not my Lord. I will be happy to take your recommendations. And I might even do some of them.’ No. If you want Jesus with you, you have to give up the right to self-determination. Self-denial is an act of rebellion against our late-modern culture of self-assertion. But that is what we are called to. Nothing less.”
-Timothy Keller
We invite you this morning to be reconciled to God through the cross of Jesus Christ - turning away from sin and self-determined living that you might find in the Creator the life that is truly life.
We’d love to walk this out with you in the coming weeks and months as a part of our Community Groups and services!